Ξ Thursday, 15 Jun 2006 at 09:53 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
well hello there from San Francisco. I’m on Nicole’s computer, and it’s Thursday morning — I’m looking for apartments still, so we’ll see what happens today, but no appointments have been scheduled thus far today. bleh. in any case, I got in yesterday around noon or so, and I ended up writing about 6 handwritten pages in a notebook while I was on the train, so the following will be a transcription of those pages, followed by a bit of fleshing-out to the present. so here goes, and I hope you all enjoy. (more…)
Ξ Tuesday, 13 Jun 2006 at 14:29 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
I am going off to San Francisco in a couple of hours — I leave at 17.10, and I will arrive there tomorrow around 8am, hopefully, if the train isn’t delayed. I’m going there to look at apartments — I’ve got two appointments lined up, and I hope others will respond to me in the coming days. In any case, I’m going to see lovely, lovely Nicole as well, so that will be a fucking treat, and I can’t wait… I’ll be leaving San Francisco on Friday night around 21.00, and thus I will be returning around noon or so on Saturday (17 Jun). I’ll likely be making a decision on the apartment I want that day as well, and hopefully I have more than two choices to pick from. I just need to get an apartment by the start of July, so whatever I can find down there will be illy.
so yes… I shall have to put off writing until I get back. I’ll try to write while I’m at Nicole’s, but no guarantees. there may be many lacunae, so I apologise in advance if there are. I will miss you all, but I will be back soon, so it’ll be all good. wish me luck in finding apartments!
Ξ Sunday, 11 Jun 2006 at 01:11 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
this morning (Saturday morning, that is), I awoke around noon, feeling utterly refreshed and happy; my old sleep patterns have pretty much all returned. I rather enjoy going to bed late and sleeping in late, as I went to sleep around 03.00 last night, but at times I miss my 05.00 or 06.00 bedtimes as well — but not the 17 or 18.00 wake-up times. in any case, today has not been all that eventful of a day, but rather restful and relaxing, helping me to get better. it was a beautiful, sunny day out, the sun shining through the virid trees, the lucida tela diei flying down from the molten sun above. Claude called me, right on cue, not long after I woke up, and I bullshitted with him for a little while, although I said I needed to go and would talk to him later — not to take the guy for granted, but there is no shortage of calls from him. so… (more…)
Ξ Saturday, 10 Jun 2006 at 02:39 | → 1 Comments | ∇ Normal |
I was telling Sara yesterday that I believe Lucretius, and thus Epicureanism, cured my νόσος ὀλοή and freed my soul from care and grievous woe. I don’t completely believe it, but I do think that all of the reading and mind-expansion may have helped calm me over the last few troubling days. I am slowly getting better, feeling like a real, soul-imbued human being again, and the sickness is slowly seeping out of my tired limbs. I feel like spitting out Lucretian formulae because they’re so fucking cool. Things such as flammantia moenia mundi (“the flaming walls of the world,” cf. Lucr. 1.72), which I’ve been yelling at my sister, parents, and even Nicole for the past couple days, and hell, even ad luminis oras like my last entry. life is imbued with love and light, and things will only get better. my mind thirsts for knowledge, and as I’ve said, I have a queue of at least 50 or so books I’m wanting to get through. might even start reading Homer soon, who knows… in any case, let me begin by discussing last night. (more…)
Ξ Thursday, 08 Jun 2006 at 17:38 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
as Lucretius would say, I feel as if I am ascending ad luminis oras, to the shores of light. you saw in the last entry that I’m feeling much better now — hopefully all better by Monday or so, I trust. we shall see, however. in any case, the last few days have been interesting in their monotony, but there’s beauty in them as well. the small things make them wonderful, such as talking to Nicole before bed, or the joy of reading something purely for pleasure (as opposed to perforce during school-time). there is great joy in taking codeine as well; don’t worry, though, for I haven’t become a junkie, and won’t — it has simply kept me from destroying myself during these last harrowing few days of grievous pain. the love with which I am surrounded always helps; even if I haven’t left the house other than to get milk/take my mum&sis to school in the last few days, I still feel the light and love of those simulacra bombarding me, those whom I consider my familiares. (more…)
Ξ Thursday, 08 Jun 2006 at 01:45 | → 1 Comments | ∇ Normal |
yes, the title says it all. i just looked at my fucking tonsils in the mirror, and the white pus (“white death”) that has been corroding them for the past three days (or perhaps longer, who knows) is fucking gone. they look red and swollen still, but no fucking pus! ahhh i am so happy! i was drinking water, too, and it didn’t hurt going down. i may just be getting better!! i’m going to look for apartments tomorrow and send some messages out, and hopefully try to set up appointments to look at places in SF next week; I can stay with my dearest Nicole for a day or two probably (or longer) while I’m doing so. god, I’m feeling better. I just finished Book 5 of Lucretius, as well, and I am going to finish the entire work tomorrow… god, I love that shit. I wish I were reading it in Latin, though, but oh well… later.
so yes, I appear to be getting better. let us cross our fingers and hope this bastard effect of my νόσος ὀλοή will not return in the morn. I took codeine and Chloraseptic to guard against it (ἡμῖν ἀπὸ λοιγόν ἠμυνόμεθα, just like Apollo), so we’ll see in the morning. I’ll write more later, of course, but I just had to share this breakthrough with all of you. I’m exhausted, so I’m going to sleep now… zzZzz.
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