Ξ Thursday, 19 Jan 2006 at 03:58 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
a couple mornings ago — and I do mean morning, i.e. the wee hours, when I was on the road to Hypnos — I lay there in the early morning gloom, the gloaming between stark night and rosy dawn. in my room, shadows coalesced and disappeared soon after their genesis, and it seemed to be an ever-growing garden of shades. I looked out the window at the darkness outside, seeing nothing but skeletal trees, and then back to my room proper, teeming with shadows. it’s a strange feeling. I remember wishing that if there were any shades in my room or around, they would speak to me, whether in a raspy voice from beyond the veil or a comforting, bright lilt — either way, could I simply see their phantasmal, spectral glow in the room? I braced myself. right then I realised that if I actually did hear a voice, even if it were my sister’s, I would probably shit my pants. either that or have a heart attack. at this unearthly hour, I wasn’t exactly as strong as I think myself to be. and well, i’ve never seen a ghost or heard one, so I’ll have to let you know if I ever do. in the early morning gloom, I lay there, surrounded by shades in my room… ok, that’s lame. but it stuck in my head, so I had to write to you all about it. (more…)
Ξ Sunday, 15 Jan 2006 at 07:12 | → 1 Comments | ∇ Normal |
i looked to the sky for inspiration just now. the light is slowly but surely dying right now as twilight approaches, and it will eventually soften to a cool, calm, crepuscular glow before completely dying out into the blue-black of night’s advent. hence, right now is a very liminal period in the day, and I feel that way as well. just threw on the FFIV soundtrack, as well, which always brightens my spirits. it’s been a good couple days since I last wrote — well, since yesterday morning — and things are well. I’m sure I said that I finished my Lovecraft book, which felt like somewhat of an achievement to me, and debated which book I ought to read next. the large Narnia volume seemed to warrant attention, but I let it be for the time being, devising another plan of action. by the time I went to bed Friday morning, around 06.00 or so, I doubted anything would wake me up by 08.00, and hoped to hell that my dad didn’t want me to work that day. (more…)
Ξ Friday, 13 Jan 2006 at 05:03 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
again, it’s been awhile since I wrote a proper post, and it’s unfortunate. also, I just realised that I committed an error in the last post — one I will leave unedited but not un-touched-on in this one — apparently I made a complete logical break between the first paragraph and the second. one minute i’m talking about dreams and their measurement and possible recording, and then I made a seemingly non sequitur jump to Lovecraft with no connective. didn’t even realise I did so… I must have been half-awake. so, lest you think I’m an idiot, it wasn’t really intentional, I don’t think. or hope. lol. i worry sometimes that my memory is eroding and atrophying; I worry that I store my memoriae up, deposit them here, and forget them afterwards… that better not be true, because it is not my intent, and would be a sad thing indeed. I think winter break is beginning to take its toll on me. days are running together due to their symmetry and sameness. i’m trying. (more…)
Ξ Tuesday, 10 Jan 2006 at 10:06 | → 2 Comments | ∇ Normal |
apologies for not writing in a couple days. last night was muddled, and i fell asleep with the light on, losing consciousness around perhaps 1am. i’ve been good lately, and feeling rather productive in a barely productive kind of way. dreams brood on my mind, and I wish that I had a recorder for them — theoretically, if there is video output, shouldn’t we be able to tap (or tape even, haha) that somehow? someone i was talking to though… perhaps my mum… said that there is no true video output; simply a genesis or generation of images and “sound” in the head while sleeping. still, although these things are being composed realtime, shouldn’t we be able to record them somehow? if my mind can remember at least fragments, then something must have taken place that is measurable. but perhaps i’m being too overly scientific and methodical about all of this. (more…)
Ξ Sunday, 08 Jan 2006 at 16:15 | → 1 Comments | ∇ Normal |
it’s actually quite greyish-blue out there right now, but I thought it would be cool if someone ended up seeing stars in the daytime (other than the sun, of course). i believe it’s almost physically impossible, however, since the sun outstrips all of them in brightness, and thus we don’t see any of them until the sun turns its radiant back on us at night. i’m hungry. it’s about 16.00 right now; i can’t remember when I woke up. probably 14.00. i was swimming in a sea of the most beautiful dreams before I woke, that much I remember, but I don’t remember what half of them were about. i’ll try to remember fragments though. (more…)
Ξ Sunday, 08 Jan 2006 at 04:28 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
it’s good to resume things. the song is eternal, carmen perpetuum (i never knew that was your name Cha.. such a beautiful name), and continues behind the scenes, even though there may be breaks in it externally. for those astral-minded, blessed individuals who are able to, setting down memories is simply a matter of retrieving them from internal memory banks, and subsequently setting them forth into the most beautiful poetry and prose just as if they were presently happening. now that is a true gift; those who can remember the most minute details, every single piece of the puzzle, and fit them together perfectly into an exquisitely beautiful, seamless patchwork of words. This patchwork in turn, if woven correctly, ought to invoke the deepest emotions in the hearts of readers, and create such vivid pictures so as to make one feel as if they were there as well, not simply viewing into a small box. thus, I resume my song here, aided by the Muses. (more…)
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