Ξ Friday, 18 Feb 2005 at 23:07 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
well, i know it’s been a long time coming, and i’m sorry. yes, i have returned. no, i was not dead. searching the lower worlds, perhaps, as usual, but far from dead. this week has been a veritable rollercoaster for sure. when was it i wrote last? last wed? christ… ok, let’s explain thursday through friday night. i know you guys probably think it’s all long winded and shit, but oh well, here goes.
thursday, 10 february: took my latin midterm. was terrified about my greek midterm that was to be taken on friday. studied my ass off for it, somewhat, and then went to sleep, resigning myself to my fate.
friday, 11 february: took my greek midterm. tired. what did i do friday night? i cant remember. oh yeah… i fucking worked. i had wRk from 15.45 to 22.15. fucking shite. that blew, and all of our registers went down too for a bit, which sucked balls. it was a turbulent day. after i got done with work i went and saw jenn, then went home. stayed up real real late, then crashed.
saturday, 12 february: this was an interesting day, for sure. woke up around 2pm (?). was supposed to be studying for midterms, but didn’t get around to it. as far as i know, i hung out with jenn for awhile, and i bought her a diamond necklace (not mad expensive, but reasonable, like $50). took her home since she had work in the morning, and i went to claude’s around 10pm.
we just chilled an shite for awhile, and then i get a call out the blue from my friend allison! yay! well, i had forgotten that she was going to be down from portland that day, and so she asked me if i wanted to hang out. i was like fuck yes, you should come over to claude’s, you gotta!! so she comes over… lol… she couldnt find the place at first, it was funny. claude’s house is a pretty obscure place to get to though, so i don’t blame her. she got there, and we were just chillin, talking and all… claude kept making 5000 calls in the meantime, and we were all laughing our asses off. i tried to invite nikki over, but she didn’t want to come; she was kinda down, which sucked. in any case, this is where things got interesting.
– i’ve told friends this a bunch already i think, well, some at least, and so if you have heard it already, you may skip this part -
claude goes “let’s watch my tape of this week’s OC” and im like fine, sounds good, cos i hadnt seen it yet. allison doesnt watch the OC, so she didnt know what it was about really, but shes like sure, why not. all of a sudden, she puts her legs across mine (i was sitting next to her on the couch), and she goes “is it ok if i use you as a footrest?” im like ‘hell yes!!!’ without a second thought. so we’re sittin there watching the OC, and i find that my hand is resting comfortably on her knee. god, i was happy. then she puts her hand on top of mine, and im goin WHOA. we basically kinda intertwined fingers and all, not really holding hands but holding hands (i know, it’s weird, i’d have to show you probably), and i was so fucking happy. it was indescribable, a ridiculously wonderful feeling. i havent held hands with another girl for 2+ years, and it was insanely intoxicating. a bit later on she kinda moved her hand around and we were sorta holdin hands, and i was wanting to straight up hold her hand, for sure…. but i didn’t, cos i thought claude would trip. im sittin there and i almost felt like me and her were a couple… it was really insane. i almost felt like it was embarrassing claude, and it was kinda strange how that worked out.
anyways, i was all smiles. the magic disappeared, however, and allison had to go home at like 3am. i walked her to her car, and hugged her TIGHT…. and then something really unexpected happened. we held each others hands, both of them, for maybe 10 seconds…. and i drew her to me again and hugged her tight, and then she left. wow. i had no idea what happened really, and i talked to her a bunch about it that night actually when i got home. it was crazy and beautiful. i went home, walking on air, and i think i stopped by 7-11 at like 4am before i crashed at home. what to do…. i’ve been pondering that for awhile now i guess. things will work themselves out, i’m sure.
sunday, 13 february: woke up at like 2pm again. was supposed to get to my studying for art history. fucked around for hours, skipped mass, did no studying until almost midnight. stayed up real late, till like 02.30 or so studying. midterm at 9am the next day. slept. hoped to god i wouldnt fail.
monday, 14 february (valentine’s): took my art history midterm bright and early at 9am. tried to study a bit beforehand, but it didn’t work too well. didn’t get any greek read for class. luckily, the outcome was favourable (i’ll fill you all in later). was supposed to be studying for my gender&sexuality midterm the next day, and went over to jenn’s to do so. ended up trying to read 4 or 5 books in one night. christine and me and jenn kept talking, and i was distracted. went home and studied, read plato until i couldnt keep my eyes open anymore. read none of the assigned latin for class the next day.
tuesday, 15 february: took my gender midterm. i woke up around 10.15, and tried to read up on some plato at the last minute. didn’t help much. i think i aced the midterm anyways, because i’d read most of the oresteia and all of aristophanes and euripides. nothing to show for vergil, but i sightread around 10 lines. went home and crashed, tired, just relaxed. i think i picked up jenn from school at like 22.30 but i can’t remember.
wednesday, 16 february: was all psyched to hang out with blythe today, but she ended up being swamped with homework and couldn’t. i understand completely…. we rescheduled for next wednesday, which is perfectly fine with me! i cant wait to see her 
accidentally slept through art history 
luckily, our midterms weren’t passed back until today (friday). went to mass, it was cool, and jenn met me afterwards. took her home. didn’t get any homework done, sadly.
thursday, 17 february: me and jenn’s “anniversary” (monthly… still 
). i actually dont think i saw her yesterday, but i can’t remember exactly. sightread some more for latin, felt like an idiot, and gender class i just took notes. we got our tests back in latin, and i got 94/100!! oh, and i prolly forgot… 86/100 in greek 
. went home, didnt study really, just was tired.
friday, 18 february (~today): last day of the week. got my art history midterm back, and i got 90% on it!!! i was so surprised…. thank god! in greek today i was saved; i didnt read, but i didnt have to read today, thank god.
ok, we’re up to the present. so today, after school, i went home and relaxed for a bit. i watched point pleasant for the first time last night, which is a fucking awesome show, and the OC last night was ill (i know i know, i’m selling out, but cmon, these shows are ill). i downloaded the first 5 episodes of point pleasant, cos i wanted to see the other ones. i watched one today, the pilot, and it was awesome! went to jenn’s around 5pm, and we got ready and went out to dinner. i took her to don juan’s, this mexican restaurant here, and then we went to go see CONSTANTINE!!! that movie was SO fucking awesome!! i wanna see it again already LOL…. anyways. i’m home now, and just relaxing. i wish i had some deeper thoughts at the moment, but i’m too burnt out. i was up till like 4am this morning talkin to a cool new friend of mine, this girl Brittany I met on myspace! shes incredible anyways, i’m around. much love…. i’ll be sleeping early tonight tho, prolly midnight. have yourselves a wonderful night, and please think of me while i’m suffering at work tomorrow. peace.
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Hey! I like your journal, it’s pretty cool…especially the background. Thanks for mentioning me in it hehe, you’re so sweet 
Well, just wanted to say hey, hope we will be friends a long time…you’re a really cool guy. If you ever get bored, you can check out my journal at http://sugapwum.bravejournal.com/. I’ll ttyl ok? Night! -Brittany
Posted 2/20/2005 at 11:46 PM by SugaPwum
