Ξ Tuesday, 30 Nov 2004 at 09:41 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
In regards to my earlier post… I’d just like to add something as a postscriptum before I formally begin this entry. I posted a comment on “NoFood’s” blog maybe a half hour ago today, and I immediately got a comment back. Apparently I have no idea what I’m talking about, and don’t realise what girls have to go through, and it’s none of my business. I really wasn’t trying to be an asshole writing that post, but fuck, it’s infuriating how skewed things are. If you see the comment on the last entry, she refers to environmental and domestic factors, such as a domineering and oppressive mother. Not to sound insensitive, but it really doesn’t fucking matter what factors are there. I’m sorry, but it’s no excuse to buy into this bullshit. Fuck them all. Fight back! Don’t be passive about this in any way. I know all girls have the power to fight this harmful ideology and philosophy, yet I think many aren’t utilising that faculty.
As I remarked on my friend roughdraft1‘s blog, I do have a vested interest in this. My girl, as you all know, is a chubby, bigger girl (she’s like 240 or so?), and I’ve had to build up her self-esteem since we started going out, and these days she is pretty happy with herself for the most part. It’s sad that I had to do that though, that she didn’t think she was beautiful and all when she is. Same with a number of my girl friends, who are bigger girls and incredibly gorgeous, but they (at least when I first got to know them) were insecure and didn’t take compliments well. I freely give compliments, as many of you know, and it’s not flattery or bullshit, but pure honesty. So yes, it is my motherfucking business. If I knew someone who died of anorexia or another disorder, I think I would give a fuck. Even if I didn’t know them, it’d just add to my conglomerate lament of American society and I’d be further saddened because someone died due to this affliction.
All I know is that if these words help encourage anyone, then I will be happy. I should hope that this is not a discouraging approach to the issue — I think it’s just very direct and candid, and people aren’t really used to that. I’m not going to walk on periphrastic eggshells here. That’s not an effective strategy at the moment. Sometimes it can be, but I think directness is very important here. It’s also painfully ironic when the very disorders we try to prevent, i.e. anorexia and bulimia (the two big ones, yea) — are epitomised and exemplified in the TV/movie celebrity and fashion worlds. Is that not ridiculous? Yes, some do get picked up on the radar, like Mary-Kate Olsen, who I don’t care for much anyways. But did anything really come of that? I thought she was back to her old ways, the last I heard, even after going through rehab *shrugs*. I guess I could go on all day about this shit, but I’m not going to, because it’s useless and I’ll just end up repeating myself. On to other matters.
It’s Tuesday, and I’m getting my internet back today!! Comcast should be there in perhaps 20min at the earliest (it’s about 9:40am), and we’ll get it all installed!! I’m happy about that. I’m thinking I might hop on IRC on my handheld just for the hell of it, but I don’t know if I’ll have time before class. Hmm… anyways, I guess my entry ended up flipping over… intro became the entry and the “intro” became the conclusion. Not much to say, just out of it. Much love to everyone, and thank you to all you faithful readers! pZ.
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about the whole compliments thingy i understand where some people are coming from about not taking compliments all that well. I am one of those people. It is only because we are nto always giving compliments. And when some does you often wonder are they lying are they tellign the truth. It is often hard to tell if you have self esteem problems. All I know is that i am part of those people who dont take compliments all that well. I wish I could do a better job but then there are family members who make fun of me. To the point where I want to say fuck you, who cares what you have to say. Mainly to my grandparents and step dad. Well talk to you later.
Peace
Posted 11/30/2004 at 6:59 PM by ryznstar2000
