Ξ Wednesday, 29 Sep 2004 at 13:43 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
“stop sending letters
letters always get burned
its not like the movies
they fed us on little white lies“
– radiohead, “motion picture soundtrack”
“but subroc, you shoulda gone with the ruby and old ock
truly the illest dynamic duo on the whole block
i keep a flick of you with the machete sword in your hand
everything is going according to plan, man…“
– mf doom, “question”
i’m in a strange mood today. musical. well, i’ll be back later. class soon. peace.
Ξ Wednesday, 29 Sep 2004 at 12:26 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
distracted. cant write, busy reading for homework. it’s been a weird day. ill write more later perhaps.
Ξ Monday, 27 Sep 2004 at 13:39 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
it’s been an interesting day so far. greek was pretty crazy, our teacher is an interesting character. we’ve got to read about 2 sentences for wednesday, which shouldn’t be a problem. after not too long i’ll be off to mythology, which is in about 50min. i walked anna to her japanese class about 20min ago, then came back here to mckenzie to space out and sit on the computers. it’s crazy being back here. i missed all the hot chicks at this school, no doubt. bahaha… listenin to my ipod as well, always nice to have music. i’ve only got two classes on MWF, which is ILL. same on tu-thurs… this will be a nice term. i’ve got to work almost 10 hours on saturday though, which is gonna be nuts. during the week, however, work is nonexistent.
how are you all doing? hopefully school will inspire me to write more on here. it’s sad to think that during the entire summer i barely wrote anything — when i had a shitload of time to do so. i guess i spent more time on other things, but i’ll make time for it during school now. everything’s kinda unstructured during summer, as opposed to during school when things are more ordered, however chaotic they may seem in the beginning.
it’s going to be an interesting and fulfilling year i think. im feeling at home already. greek class had most of the same people from last year, but some didn’t return, unfortunately. oh well. been running into familiar people too, which is always nice. i just hope i can get my licence back today and be able to drive. i wont even go into that. i cant remember if i have before, but it’s a long story. i’d rather spend my energies on something more worthwhile than writing about bureaucratic bullshit. heh. still unfocused but thats the beauty of all of it. the stylistic beauty. as thom yorke said once, “it’s going to be a glorious day.”
i should be sitting in the EMU right now, relaxing, but fuck it. i’m down here, it’s almost subterranean but not quite. its a grey day outside, not much colour in the sky. trees are starting to lose their leaves. i told a friend yesterday i wish summer lasted until december. school is good though. i just wish i’d spent the summer more intellectually. basically i just worked, and in my spare time i chilled with jenn or friends or just spent the day secluded. i didnt even read any greek or latin, and i’m worried about that, because i hope i havent forgotten any of it. *sighs* …. well, we’ll figure out i guess eventually. my greek teacher seems pretty chill about things, and he said we’d take it slow cos the shit is fucking hard.
not much more to say. just happy to be alive. i guess i’ve got mixed feelings right now. happy to be here but still holding onto the last tenuous wisps of summer. i think i need to get out more, lmfao. theres a squirrel outside burying something. hilarious to watch this motherfucker dig. hes goin in hyper-speed. looks like a fucking machine. wahahaha… you can tell im a little off today.
i dunno, i see all these new freshmen here and almost wish i was a freshman again. makes me sad in a way i guess, i feel sort of like an outsider in a way. i guess thats just me clinging to summer still. im sure things will be good once school gets rolling. its funny though, you can walk around here and feel really alone even in the midst of so many people. sometimes that’s a reassuring feeling, revelling in that anonymity and solitude, but other times it feels oppressive.
am i being melodramatic? cliched? sometimes it sounds like that, but i’m just writing what i feel and see. you walk around campus sometimes and you just feel like a shade in a sea of strangers, unseen, unheard, unless you happen to bump into someone and they say ‘excuse me.’ actually, that kinda negates the “shade” metaphor, but you know what i mean. i guess sometimes i feel out of place even though i’ve been here for almost four years. hell, even at church i feel like that.
i went to church last night, and although i saw a lot of my friends, many of them are just acquaintances to me, since i’ve never hung out or formed any real bonds with them. i try to reach out for that, but a lot of them are in their own tight-knit circles and resist outside interference. claude is the only guy there i actually chill with and talk to on a regular basis, and he is also on the fringe in a number of ways. however many include him in their endeavors and such, and i’m not sure whether it’s out of pity or what, because most people i’m sure diss him behind his back. a lot of people seem to be really fake there, and i thought that would change, but it hasn’t for the most part. i’m just trying my best i guess. hopefully paige will be at church on wednesday, cos i miss her and wanna see her. she is actually one person i’d consider a true friend there, and i havent even seen her for three months. the others just pretend to be your friend. at least thats what it seems like usually, and it’s sad that church should be so cliquish.
anyways, i need to go — class awaits. i’ll be back later. fuck, i wrote a lot on this. hopefully youll see much more 
peace!
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Ah yeah, well I think you need to go into the whole liscence thing. Since we have no idea what your talking about lol
Posted 9/28/2004 at 4:34 PM by starchild_97402
Ξ Sunday, 26 Sep 2004 at 18:30 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
on the eve of war.
not really. that’s a jedi mind tricks track. but yeah, school starts tomorrow. greek at 10am. itll be cool, im just sorta nervous. otherwise its good, im goin to church in about 30min and thatll be cool. fuck, i wish summer went until december. bahaha…. im only going to be working 1-2 days a week now that school is starting. perhaps ill be writing more on my blog too! (i have 11-2pm free tomorrow). ill try to write some in the basement of mckenzie. it’s a nice creative environs. ill bring my handheld too, perhaps my ipod as well — gotta have entertainment right? lol. much love to all of you out there — youre heroes/heroines in your own right, and you better know that. take it easy everyone, and by the way, if you want, i’ll take a picture of your tits with my camera phone…. bahaha…. well… im half kidding and half serious. any takers, let me know, it’ll be funny. peace.
Ξ Thursday, 23 Sep 2004 at 23:34 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
yo! star wars came yesterday, i watched like 3 hours of the bonus shit, it was ill…. but yeah, how are ya all? ive got wRk tomorrow, which sucks, but hey, i get to work with my friend christina, so thats ill as fuck shes dope… anyways, i dont have much to say. i got a camera phone today to replace my shitty old phone as well — it should prove useful in the future…. muhahahaha… but yeah, much love to all and peace.
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I picked Star wars up on Friday night. I watched 1 Friday. Then watching the rest tonight Pretty hawt!
Posted 9/26/2004 at 3:06 PM by starchild_97402
Ξ Wednesday, 22 Sep 2004 at 02:29 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
on sunday i was looking up at the sky while the rain poured down around me. i don’t think i do that often enough — look at the sky that is. well, i don’t stand out in the rain enough either, come to think of it. today was interesting. i bought Beyond Re-Animator today (no surprise, I rented it and absolutely loved it)… and the Star Wars TRILOGY will be coming in the post tomorrow… well… UPS… same difference. I hope it comes tomorrow, because that’s when fucking UPS said it would, heh… Otherwise, not much going on. Life’s kinda boring these days. I’ve not much to write about, and I wish I did. I wish I could think up some of the crazy shit I can usually think up during school, but I haven’t been able to. Fuck. Anyways, I’m around. I love you all, especially Jenn (and the rest of “the ladies” LOL). Peace.
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