Ξ Tuesday, 30 Mar 2004 at 21:55 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
well, fuck history 351. i went to the class today and i wanted to get in, but the prof is nonnegotiable and fucked. oh well. i decided to get into english 394, which is at the same time, and it should be good — 20th century lit! we’re gonna read some good shite, so im interested to see how it turns out. i’ve only taken one english class so far, and it was fun, so this one should be good. fuck britney spears by the way, i dont know why i dreamt that, but fuck her, i cant stand the bitch. she can swallow my cock after i’ve waited in line at the city fuck fest all night long. lmfao, i’m an asshole. oh well. much love.
Ξ Tuesday, 30 Mar 2004 at 12:19 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
my god, i almost forgot…. i had the weirdest fucking dream last night.
there was some kind of party going on at my house, and i had to get ready for it and all. i think some people were already there, too, and one girl had a shirt saying Charonta on it (“Charon”, but the accusative, rather than the nominative), and I thought that was interesting. I was then brushing my teeth, and there was some girl i knew next to me brushing hers too. I don’t know why either, but we were using black toothpaste, and apparently that didn’t faze me much, as I kept going.
this is the strangest, but arguably coolest part.
somehow the girl next to me morphed into britney spears, and she was nude from the waist down. quickly she covered herself as i glanced over, and i found i wasn’t wearing anything from the waist down either. i quickly covered myself too, but then all of a sudden we drew each other close, and i was thinking, “my god, i’m fucking britney spears!” i kept thinking, “holy shit, shes got a small pussy” but after a couple in-outs, then all was blank.
no idea where it came from. i dont even hardly like britney spears, i mean i hate her fucking music and i dont like her looks too well either, but for some reason she popped up in my dream. lol. now there’s some crazy shit.
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HAHAAA you had me rolling dawg on this dream.. ahaha be cool stay in school fool
Posted 3/31/2004 at 10:01 AM by AersolDreamr
Ξ Tuesday, 30 Mar 2004 at 12:09 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
where is my muse today? i went to astrology, it was fairly interesting…. a lot of science involved, apparently. my friend liz from greek was in there too, but she said she was going to drop; obviously it didn’t interest her much, and i noticed that, since she packed up her stuff a few minutes before class ended, all but giving up on taking notes.
i’ve still got to try to get into that fucking class, and i’m trying to register for it like every five minutes. sons of bitches. i hope the prof will help me out here. i’m missing my other bloody class for this. i’ve got roughly two hours before i have to go and argue my case.
it’s brighter but still greyish outside. had some lunch, and am now just idling right here. nothing much to do. i should have brought my astrology books with me today, since i have some reading to do for thursday. oh well. im so out of it. whats up with all you guys?
drop me a msg or somethin so i know i’m still among the living and not just trapped in a phantasmagoric nightmare or something.
Ξ Tuesday, 30 Mar 2004 at 08:21 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
well, another day, another dollar. (</cliche>) how’s it going out there? i’m still trying to get into that fucking class, and im going to go today and see if i can knock some sense into the prof. fuckin a. shit is stressin me, has been all week. pisses me off. i’ve got three classes today, including that one im just gonna go to and see if i can get in… but they will be fun. i don’t mind. work at 16.00, then i’m off at 20.00, so it’ll be a walk in the motherfucking park.
at least one person read my entry yesterday. thanks steve. not many people read this, but i still keep posting. you know why? i dont really give a fuck. one of these days people are going to want to read these random thoughts, hell, they may even consider them brilliance. not that i have delusions of grandeur or anything, but you never know.
it’s only tuesday, and its going to be a long week. it’s been alright so far though; work was good yesterday, 11-20.00, so it was long, but not that bad. i had fun.
it’s a rainy day outside. i walked through it on the way over here, it felt kind of nice though. these grey oregon days are nice. i guess i’m used to them, having lived here all my life. anyways, im droning on again. i’ll be around. you know where to find me.
Ξ Monday, 29 Mar 2004 at 08:15 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
well… it’s been what, 17 days…. yeah…. 17 days since i last wrote in here. been busy lately i guess, finals were right after my last entry and also i’ve been working the last week or so, so i havent had much time these days.
i’m trying to get into this fucking class, and it’s full as hell… i hope some people drop, because i need this class — or i’m going to get stuck in this godawful class i accidentally signed up for, which will fucking suck. otherwise things are fine, but its going to be one hell of a long day — i am working from 11-20.00, and then going to jenn’s afterwards. so here we are, it’s 8am and i’m already burnt out. even my weekend wasn’t that restful.
these days things are weird. i was… i dont think i still am…. confused about where me and jenn stood in our relationship. she would even let me go out with another girl if that’s what it took for me to find myself and come back to her… because i had told her i was worried i was “missing out” — so she said that, which i thought was rather extreme, but very devoted. i declined the offer, however, since i don’t want another girl, i want her…. and in any case, i’ve never been too good at the dating game. all that effort, you know… no reason for it, since i have a wonderful girl right now.
i guess sometimes i take her for granted, and i really shouldn’t. i really fucking shouldn’t. she told me, “sometimes you just hurt me right and left…” and i was like fuck…. i never want to hurt her. that is the last thing i want to do. but i always seem to end up doing it unintentionally, and it worries me. i really need to get my shit together and realise what a beautiful and wonderful girl i have, and to hell with everyone else…. as long as i have her, i don’t need to look for any girls. i have girl friends, and im happy with them, they are wonderful too. hello bekah, allison, annalicious, paige, lananh, denisey, kell, carla, becky, kristen, nicole, kirs, ashley… and anyone i forgot, i’m sorry. i love you all very much, and always and forever will. you all know that.
one life, one love. omnia vincit amor. perhaps i’m a hopeless romantic, but i think love is a really powerful thing. highly unpredictable sometimes, yes, but without a doubt very powerful. well, i’ve rambled on long enough. perhaps some of you will identify with these words. i don’t know. peace to you all in any case.
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your view on love is what I see also…. stay safe bud.. stay in school..
Posted 3/30/2004 at 8:06 AM by AersolDreamr
Ξ Friday, 12 Mar 2004 at 08:35 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
done with my paper. i turned it in yesterday. jesus fucking christ, i was up for nearly 48hrs working on that. procrastination’s a bitch sometimes… well… all the time. i ended up cranking out a 7pg paper (6.5, but with a half-page or so of Works Cited to round it out), and i had to present it in class, and i think my teacher liked it. hopefully.
so after all that, where am i? well, there are finals to be studied for, but i will leave that until tomorrow. procrastination strikes again! but alas, im fucking exhausted so i dont have the patience to study today. need a nap. it’s going to be a glorious day. there’s already sunshine getting into my eyes, slightly uncomfortable but entirely welcome. it lights up this room i’m in with its ethereal glow.
have you ever seen dead blood? i guess jenn said this once, but when blood turns brown and seems to oxidise, it is actually the blood cells dying, so they go from a brilliant crimson to a dull rusty brown when exposed to air, as far as i know. sanguis mortuus.
the sun filters through the trees as if in a wood, just like Ovid says… although this is no twilight or dying ember-like glow, this is simply the kindling of the day, the genesis of it, and the sun shines bright overhead amid a blue sky.
i guess i pay attention to things like this more than others sometimes. looking at details is a favourite pastime.
anyways. tired and need to get to class soon. enjoy your day everyone.
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