Ξ Wednesday, 18 Feb 2004 at 08:44 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
‘Tis Wednesday morning. Still rainy. Was a nice night last night, I chilled with Claude and we watched Dickie Roberts: Former Child Star. That movie was absolutely fucking hysterical, yo…. It may not have been the most intelligent movie but it was hysterical, I was laughing my ass off! Then I got Jenn a yellow rose for our year and 4 month anniversary (‘happy 16th!’) — she loved it! 
Showed my friend Anna my giantess poem too hehe…. she said she was “touched!” I guess it sort of was about her too; I had made it generic really but she is really into the giantess stuff and loves it, so it definitely could be about her as well. Anyways…. I’m just chillin before class. Another day, another dollar, right?
I got a 97.5 on my Latin midterm, which was bloody awesome, I was really happy about that. Greek midterm: ~80.1. Anthro midterm: 45/50. So I’m fairly happy with my grades this term… I can make up the points for the Greek midterm with extra credit, and the others speak for themselves.
I was just listening to MF Doom’s “Viktor Vaughn: Vaudeville Villain” — the track “Never Dead” — “It’s Vaughn against the ninth grade” — lmmfao… beautiful track, he talks about getting his Donkey Kong game stolen and etc. “I’ma cheat off Peter Parker”… but yeah… fucking ill album. I’ll actually leave you with one of my favourite quotes of his… peace….
“Only in America could you find a way to make a healthy buck / And still keep your attitude on self-destruct” – MF Doom,”Rhymes Like Dimes”
Ξ Monday, 16 Feb 2004 at 23:13 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
Was a beautiful weekend. I dunno… I’m out of it, I’d say more but can’t really think of what to say. Strange dreams last night. Multi-storied buildings and elevators. Anyways, I’m veritably pissed and offended today over some fuckin retarded shit. Some people are just idiots and aren’t able to have any compassion and understanding, and choose to shoot first and ask questions later. Well…. love conquers all, right right? By the way, did anyone like my piece I did on the 13th? Maybe? No? *shrugs* Oh well.
Sit back and enjoy the apocalypse.
Ξ Friday, 13 Feb 2004 at 12:45 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
It’s Friday the 13th. No, I don’t mean the movie, I mean today IS Friday the 13th. Hehe… anyways… I had my Greek midterm this morning, and I think it went reasonably well, which is good…
It’s just been a fucking long week, and I’m excited to get out of here and go to the coast and just fucking relax. Shite… I got a haircut too, so if you want to see me with a nearly shaved head (LOL) then let me know, i’ll snap a pic with my webcam. I have to go to Anthro discussion at 13.00, which is around 40min from now, but otherwise I have nothing to do.
I hope my Apocalypse Zero DVD comes soon, I really want to see it! Should come between today and like 2 weeks from now, which kinda sucks, but oh well.
I’m not a vain creature, am I? But aren’t humans vain by their very nature? Do we all spend so much time making ourselves look presentable that we lose our humanity in the process, alienating others if they don’t fit a prescribed standard of “beauty,” or simply make a “mistake” in their attire or aspect one day? I know this sounds cliche, and to most it probably is… I don’t mean to preach either, but it just bothers me that everyone is so absorbed in how they look and they fail to pay attention to things that really do matter, inania pro gravibus (inane/empty/vain things in place of serious ones)….
It just fucking pisses me off, that’s all. I try to be a tolerant motherfucker, and when people aren’t, it’s pretty bloody rude. So what if someone isn’t wearing the right t-shirt, or the right skirt, or whatever? How does it affect you, and why do you have to comment on it and make them feel bad for being who they are? *shrugs* Usually who they are is moulded according to what the majority thinks, so who they are really isn’t even them, it is just a shade of them, a translucent copy that exists only for the appeasement of the mob.
So shed your illusory skin and show your true self. If the populus doesn’t like it, or can’t handle it, fuck ‘em. It’s better to be who you truly are rather than pretend you’re someone you’re not. You’re probably saying now, “I’ve heard that bullshit before, everyone knows that they should be him or herself, people always say that.” Well, they may say that, but that is also another illusion, for the truth of the matter isn’t such. It’s just like those certain people who smile and praise to your face, then fuck you over and backstab you with a dagger when you turn your back. While they’re telling you to “be yourself” and “don’t worry what people think,” they’re still under the influence of the majority, and even though they may say that, it’s a bunch of bullshit. They don’t want you to be yourself, they just want to pretend that they have something to say that will enlighten you.
Who’s “they,” you may ask? All those public figures and supposed role models we all have. I’m not saying everyone is out to fuck you over, believe me, because not everyone is…. but a lot of people can be ingratiating bastards who pretend to be doing a service when they don’t even believe the utter horseshit they’re saying.
Humanity is not a lost cause, but some of it is in a sad state. The media, however, is one of the biggest contributors to this stupor that everyone is in, programming us to believe that a size 2 is the only definition of beautiful, or that if you’re not blonde and huge-breasted, you’ll never get a date. We’re also led to worship movie stars as gods and goddesses, and have an intense desire to know absolutely everything that goes on in their lives. Just look at Affleck and Lopez…. those motherfuckers split up because of all the attention they got in the media, most likely. It was a bullshit relationship anyways, and I certainly got fucking tired of hearing about it, as many of you others did too, I’m sure. So yes… The majority, or at least what the media portrays as “the majority,” are fixated on the flaws in their bodies rather than the beauty and grace of the human form. Don’t give in to the bullshit. I leave you with a quote from James Joyce:
“Gazing up into the darkness I saw myself as a creature driven and derided by vanity; and my eyes burned with anguish and anger.”
– James Joyce, “Araby” (short story from Dubliners).
P.S. Thank you for listening, and if I offended anyone, good — have a chat with me about it, I’d be happy to. It wasn’t my intent to offend, just to make my views clear. Who knows why I decided to write this? It just kind of flowed out, almost a stream-of-consciousness kinda thing. So again, if I offended you — bloody talk to me about it. And if I didn’t offend you and you thought what I had to say was good — talk to me about it as well. Thanks.
– Grey
Ξ Monday, 09 Feb 2004 at 18:42 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
Well, it’s been a long day. I bought MF Doom – Operation Doomsday and MF Doom – Is Viktor Vaughn Vaudeville Villain today 
anyways, i have a Latin midterm to study for, so i’m out for now… just sayin hi… pZ
Ξ Friday, 06 Feb 2004 at 10:23 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
Was about to fall asleep in Greek. Now I’m just chillin on the computers, class at 1 
but yeah…. listening to my iPod. It’s raining out and the sky is grey. The concrete wall out the window to my right has streaks of rain running down it, looking ever so much like bloodstains. You know what I’m talking about right? The sky is an emotionless grey, barely visible rain pouring down on the earth. Death is in the air. I wish I could go home, but I have class at 13.00. Bastards. We just had a midterm, come on…. oh well.
I’ve just come to the revelation that MF Doom is a fucking ill MC. Anyone ever heard him? Well, he’s ill as fuck. I need to check out his old crew KMD, which included him and his late brother DJ Subroc. Operation Doomsday is ill though, so is Viktor Vaughn Vaudeville Villain — I may need to buy both of them. Fucking brilliant albums. The video for ? feat. Kurious off of Doomsday is fucking insane too, I loved it. I think I will have to buy both of those fuckers.
I’m so out of it. It’s Friday and I am SO looking forward to this weekend. It’s gonna be a glorious day, right Thom? heheh. I hope I get my Anthro exam back today, but I’m kind of doubting it. It’s alright though, I can wait until Tuesday if need be. Hmm… well… I will be around, drop me an email or msg me or something, ok?
Ξ Friday, 06 Feb 2004 at 08:24 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Normal |
Well, it’s finally Friday. By the way, that Anthro midterm was so fucking easy I could have done it with my eyes closed. So much for being worried about the test… I’m sure I will come out of it with at the very least an A-. Only two classes today, thank God…. then I’m gonna fuckin relax, goin to coffeehouse at Newman Center tonight, which should be fun…. otherwise, not doing too much. Kinda tired. Wish I had more to write.
Been a long fucking week. Next week will be even longer, however, since I’ve got two midterms Hopefully they will go well. Anyways, I’ll be around.
